it might just all be a facade

Wednesday, October 11, 2006;

♥ 10/11/2006 05:53:00 AM

but only love can say
try again and walk away
but i believe
for you and me
the sun will shine one day
so i just play my part
and pray that you'll have a change of heart
but i cant make you see it thru
that's smth only love can do

oh! dearest jacq sent me the template already! but its just that IM TOO LAZY TO GO ADD IN THOSE FREAK HTML FOR MY TAGBOARD AND ALL
solution: i'll put up that new blogskins these weekend! xD
advice: you guys just stop complaining and bear with this ~~very~~ rather awful blogskins.
-laugh retardly like carissa.
=p

so anyways, its just 3 more days before we're officially kicked out of fmss
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mixed emotions hur?
part of me want to just pon school from now til thanksgiving and dont give a damn bout school. afterall, who DONT dread going to school with that bag full of heavy textbooks? (right. we no longer carry textbooks right! aha.)
still, the other part of me yearns to go school early everyday to just cherish that last few days we'all will be tgt as a class, as 4e06.
dont you? dont you?
HAHA! :D
y'know, after being a farisian for 10 ~~longgg~~ years. ive decided to just look back at my fm life and see how ive grown and everything
from those childish disputes like : i dont wanna friend you already! humpf!!
(yesh. now you look back and count those numoerous times you said those stuff in primary school. HOW CHILD-LIKE)
to now, conversations like : look. im sorry. but youre a great friend to me which i dont wanna lose.
we''ve grown just so much. not in terms of size of height (stinks! i was so so so much taller than so many guys in pri sch/ sec1. and now, ive tilt my head up to talk to them. talk bout SHOOTING UPPP!)
but rather, in terms of how mature our thinkin becomes and how we deal with problems.

during my journey in fm life, im so so glad that certain ppl appear.
SEC 1
DARREN KANG YONG ZHI; hey da jie! haha. thanks for all your crappiness and jokes that help my survive thru the impossible sec1 yr!
AARON ANG; my long lost di! though its pretty sad that we've drifted so much apart. but im glad to see you enjoying life with your clique and all. still, always look on the bright side of life hur? rmbr, youve a true real friend in me. <33
EDMUND CHOO; aha! my 'best guy friend' in sec1. seriously, i cant believe that youve grown so tall now. BLEAHH.
YUNTING; hey girl! rmbr those busrides we always took tgt with issac right after school? rmbr those lil notes we pass around in classes? rmbr we used to stand tgt along the corridors during sec1 to look at AHEM! and AHEM? haha. good ol' memories indeed. :D <33
TA SZEMIAN; ALTHOUGH we arent in teh same class. but youre the one i always run to after school and during recess! hehe. i love those sweet letters b/w us. those wodnerful secrets. and you're my bestestest girlfriend! thank you so much for everything youve done for me. ILY SO SO MUCH. <33
TIFFANY and RACHEL; hey! rmbr at the beginnin of the sec1 life? when i will always drop by your class to say hi and chat with you girls? haha! its fun indeed. sad to see that all are us are drifted apart now. but y'know wat, you girls still hold a special part of my heart! <33

SEC 2
(oh yeah! i love this class so so much! <333)
THE FAG-GIES; hey girl! (SZEMIAN. VALERIE. YUNXING. JACQ. ELIS. MARTHA) without you girls, i bet i'd have died halfway trhu my sec2 life already! haha. thank you so much for always stinkin tgt with me and all. rmbr those times when we would sit tgt in a LONGGG line during mr ho's class? rmbr thsoe times when we're late tgt? haha. and that's how the formation of FAGS came about! carzy ol' times hur? i thank god for presenting your friendships to me. its the most valuable thing to me indeed! ive gain so much and learn so much from you girls. so, let's enf off this by say there'll still be outings for the 7 of us right?! <33
THE KOKT-S: hey KO and gang. hahahah! ive so much to say to you guys bvut i dunno how to start. uhm, lets just say, hope our friendship remains hur?! <33
CLARENCE and JOSHUA and NICH and ALL OTHER; yesh you all! with the presence of you ppl, no wonder i love 2c04 so much! haha. <33
FMSSRCY; though fmssrcy is a unit, not a someone. but it had certainly taught me so much during yr 2004. like, the openin to leadership? longlasting friendships. and many many morew. thank you, fmssrcy. for letting me realised that a family can be build, even in a cca. <33
HIDAYAT; well, all that should be said, are said. i just hope that the pure friendship b/w us is still present. and that, yeah, like normal good ol' friends, we will all still joke around and have fun as a clique! haha. best of lucks to you and your future. (:
LEONARD; leon sir! omg omg omg. youve taught me so so so many things that i simply cant learn in textbooks! haha.
ENSHAO and KEVIN; hey, to my two 8yrs olf seniors and counting. you two played such an impt in my fm life okays! being there for me, crappin, and just helpin my lighten my load and day. i love you two so much! haha. thanks for alwys being there. nudgin my online and stuff. catch up soon i hope! (:

SEC 3&4
THE EXCO! ;
chanel>hey girl! though we always are conducting silly disputes that cranks all of us up. i hope that you do know, ive found such a special fren in you. a friendship that i'd wanna treasure forever. (: well, y'know. those the years in fmssrcy (be it, a cadet of a nco) ive just learnt so much from you. in terms of how to deal with things and yeah, showing those leadership qualities. though we arent really those close friends who would share secrets, but i'd love to be your friend-forever! <33
nirma> NI-MA! :D hehe. though youve been saying so9rry for god-knows-what-reasons. i still wanna say THANK YOU so much for everything! <33
carissa> hey girl! ive just so so much to blog bout but guess what? i realised ive just so so much to say to you! but once we meet, we cant stop but start a 'cat fight'! haha. funny aint it? but still, carissa. youre so precious to me. HAHA. not in the sense of BGR or wat. but hell, yeah! youre always there, youre always listening, youre always so full of superb advice and stuff. my, i thank god so much for you. indeed, there're times when we fight over silly misunderstanings and gossips. but that did help strengthen our friendship and let me know how much i truly care for you. ILU. <33
yx>hey silly fag! haha. i love you, dearest admin. for always tryin your best to lighten up the mood. let those silly disputes and misunderstandings go away hur? haha. I LOVE YOU! <33
xf> hey to the so quiet girl. haha! i still rmbr times we walk out of sch tgt. ohh! good ol' time! love them <33
saleha>one simple word that will express my love for you : WELFAREEEEEE! <33
brandon simon yuliang hey guys! ive so much to say to you! haha. but to keep things short and simple. thank you. thank you. and thank you. <33
let the friendship bw us not end forever hur? and yesh, swensens calling out for the exco. cant you hear it? :D
ZHENGXIAN; hey freak. well, y'know. im actually quite glad to still be your friend! haha. but yeah, thanks for the memories! hahahah. and stop going around tryin to hold all the girls' hands i tell you. be faithful to your ~~toilet cleaner~~ girlfriend! hehe
JOSHUA KONG; you! fishy + dearest enemy + dearest consultant + flea + etc. (oh dear! youve so so many nicks!) thank you for always being there whenever i need a listening ear or a helping hand! haha. without you, ibet i'd have die fromt eh stress and troubles already! and you'd be goin around to borrow that teddy bear suit for my funeral! aha. i've never said this, but thank you. for trusting me, and lettin mme into your secrets. thank you, for always cracking jokes and brightenin my day. thank you, for helpin me thru all my troubles and stuff. thank you for those great advices. in short, thank you for being joshua kong. haha. youve helped me survived thru my fm life! RMBR THOSE DATES! <33
RECESS CLIQUE; (valerie. yenyee. joq. grace. nirma)i just wanna say. thank y'all so much for the laughter and memories in these 2 yrs! haha. and yesh, we'll have another sleepover after o levels without those stinky textbooks hur?! <33
CHINA TRIPPERS!; hahaha. i love you all! omg. words cant express my love for you guys and girls! i mean, y'all are there when we're bout to froze to death (alright. fine. its a bit too much. ha) and you were there where we played daidee and everything! and yesh, im so sad to see some of the precious friendship ending. ): yet still, glad to see some of the friendships going so so strong. friends forever!! <33
THOSE WHO IVE LEFT OUT; y'all will still hold a special place in my heart. i promise. keep in contact and all the best for mugging! ahaha. <3

oh dear. i so-hate-it when im happily bloggin away. while the ~~irritaing~~ school papers are on my study desk calling out ny name. ):
what a bummer
wells, same thing goes
last few days of school = SNAPSHOTS day! xD

cos i've grown.
cos i ~~hope i~~ wont be mislead by you;

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.